A new day, a new week...
I'm up early, ready to start my day! It's not uncommon for me to be up so early, in fact I'm always awake by 4:30 a.m.. It's a curse. I've made a decision! BE PRODUCTIVE! I have the tools, the brains, and there's no reason to lay around until the alarm goes off. The only way to get back on my feet is to get of my ass and BE PRODUCTIVE! Please bear with me, trust me, the struggle is real. I sent my baby to bed yesterday following a rough day & a somewhat mild seizure. Our goal is to redo her bedroom, painting the walls, shampooing the carpet and buying new furniture. I just want her to be comfortable and have a pleasant space. She's worked diligently and tackled the mounds of laundry and "stuff" she's crammed in her tiny little room. Now it's my turn! Follow through! Follow through! Make it happen mom! Monday? The first full week of school & settling into a routine. I'm waiting on a message for a team meeting, and other than a volleyball tourney & our first football game, our week seems pretty uneventful. Trust me, it's subject to change at any given moment. I can do this! Goal? Stay on task, have a plan, stick to it! (Insert high-5's) Ready...GO TEAM MOM!
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My son's family moved & I've spent the summer chasing kids, and doctor appointments. I went from easy access to my 1st grandchild to their relocating 3 hours away. Not an easy change for this first time grandma. Compound that with my daughter's many doctor appointments, and making sure my middle son gets to his summer job, I've spent the summer indoors, ignoring my yard, & trying to ignore any drama. I was feeling just a little more than overwhelmed with all the changes in our life within the last year.
School started? Where did the summer go? It's August, really? With every school year, I fear the IEP's & the battle for inclusion. My 15 year old tested out of special ed? How does that happen. Don't misunderstand me, it was a proud mama moment. BUT.. I have to admit, I'm more than a little uneasy about this. There's proof now that he can do it, and I've been promised a backup plan. (Pause to pick my daughter from work) We live 10 miles from town...I was just entering town when my daughter's boss called. She was having a seizure. 5 minutes until she clocks out & her day is done, she didn't make it. My brain is tired, I can't imagine how her brain feels. I think I know where our summer went. It's August and maybe a nap is in order, for both of us. There's no doubt as parents we've all been guilty of bad parenting. I don't think one parent can truthfully say they've been perfect at absolutely every move they've made along their parenting journey. It troubles me that I've witnessed both numerous comments on social media and in my presence, accusations of bad parenting, comments about letting the toddler play unsupervised in alligator infested waters, and "how stupid can you be", were among some of the comments I overheard in public today. When it comes right down to it, we've all been there. The child that fell into the gorilla's cage, and now the child swooped up in the jaws of an enormous creature certainly is tragic for that family. But seriously folks! How many times have you lost track of an adventurous toddler, either in the store rack, your local pharmacy, or even at home. I have! This family was on the vacation of a lifetime. The parents according the news were by the child's side. They were at the edge of the water at a resort. They were participating in a restful evening together, it's not like they were napping in a drunken stupor on the shore & had carelessly turned their toddlers loose to fend for themselves. Where does that quick response and act of judgement originate? I think today, 2016 we are so quick to point fingers, place a label on others that we fail. We literally fail; we fail as a human being, fail ourselves, fail sometimes even our friends or family. What happened to compassion? Is there a reason why we are becoming more and more desensitized. What is the cause? Is it a trend among young individuals? Is it everyone; are all ages struggling with it? Is it something created by social media, technology & our ability to have the news instantaneous? Have we become numb and uncaring to one another's plight? I will be the first to stand up and say "Hey, I've been a shitty parent & more than once!" We've all been there, or you will certainly be there! You will be a shitty parent at one time or another but that doesn't mean the mother that lost her child at the zoo or the parents that just lost their baby today were guilty of that. Were you there? Um, NO! Have some compassion, this family is mourning. They've lost a child, pray for them, pray for their comfort to handle this tragic loss, and while you're at it say one for our society, for all races, religions, sexual orientation, men & women, that we may all have a little more understanding for those around us. My heart breaks for this family, I can't imagine the loss they must feel. #parenting #tragicloss #children #grief #loss |
Cynthia"Don't put an age limit Archives
July 2018
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